Inside The Mind Of A Girl Who Thinks She Can’t Move On
There’s a young woman I’m acquainted with. At first, she seems just like everyone else.
She starts her day with a smile, tackles her job, and makes an effort to be kind to those around her.
She has a social circle, a vibrant life, and close ties with her family. People genuinely enjoy her company; some even look up to her.
She always appears content, shining with a cheerful grin. People admire her resilience and how she faces life’s hurdles.
When they see her, they assume her life is perfect and worry-free.
Everyone considers her incredibly strong. Even when faced with issues, she confronts them with remarkable composure and patience.
But nobody truly understands the real her. Nobody sees that her outward appearance is just a mask.
Nobody knows about her struggles and the emotional turmoil she hides deep within.
Of course, her friends and family know she had a serious relationship. They know she loved a man deeply.
And they know this man left her when she needed him most, leaving her in immense pain.
But they believe that chapter of her life is over. They think she’s moved on and left him in the past.
She never discusses him or shows signs of sadness, so they assume she hasn’t found the right person yet.
They don’t realize how wrong they are.
They don’t know she’s constantly battling emotional pain. That every morning is a struggle to get out of bed.
Yes, they know this man hurt her, but they don’t grasp the depth of her pain.
They don’t realize he changed her, even though she appears the same on the outside.
They don’t know her smiles are forced and she constantly holds back tears. She does this because she’s embarrassed and afraid to appear weak.
But when she’s by herself, thoughts of what this guy did to her consume her.
They don’t know she cries almost every night.
They don’t know she breaks down at the sight of someone who resembles her ex or at the sound of his voice.
They don’t know she avoids mentioning him for fear of breaking into tears.
But most importantly, they don’t know she can’t move on. Moving on scares her. She yearns to live her life free of this man’s shadow.
They don’t know he still affects her, even though he’s not in her life. That this guy is the reason she remains single.
Everyone assumes she has moved on, but in truth, she hasn’t budged an inch.
Because she fights. She fights to show the world and him that she can live without him.
But more importantly, she battles with herself and her feelings every day.
She thinks she can’t move on because she fears any new partner will be just like her ex. She’s certain the next guy will crush what’s left of her already broken heart.
That fear paralyzes her. It traps her, making her feel like she’ll never escape the pain and misery this man caused.
The reality is, she hasn’t gotten over what she went through.
But she hides all this inside because she knows no one would comprehend her suffering and weakness.
You might wonder how I know all of this. Well, let me tell you: I am this girl.
And I wouldn’t wish for any other woman to be in my shoes.
