You Either Want Me Or You Don’t, This “Almost” Is Torture

One moment you draw me in, and the next, you push me away. Are you aware of how this impacts me? Do you comprehend the turmoil you’re causing in my heart and mind?

I long for stability. This constant back-and-forth of yours frustrates me. When we are together, everything seems perfect.

You have feelings for me, and I feel the same for you. In our moments together, you exhibit kindness, love, and are undoubtedly the sweetest man on earth, yet when we’re apart, you seem indifferent and fail to check on me.

But as soon as I begin distancing myself, suddenly you chase after me.

This annoys me. I despise these mind games. It bothers me that your desire for me surfaces only when you fear losing what we have. When I’m not close.

I expect more than just words and unfulfilled assurances. I’m looking for more than the phrases, “Let’s not complicate things,” “Savor the moment and don’t worry about what’s next,” “Are you not content with our current situation?”

No, I’m not content as things stand now. I need clarity on where we are headed. I’ve heard every rationalization under the sun and I’m weary of it.

If you truly care about me as you claim, the only thing present in our path is your own trepidation.

You are filled with uncertainties, and truthfully, so am I. Fear resides within me as well.

What if you cause me pain? What if everything turns out wrong? What if you meet someone new? What if you shatter my heart like no one has before?

Guess what? I’m equally exhausted by the ‘what ifs.’ We cannot predict the future. What if we actually thrive together?

What if we possess something genuine, and we let it slip away due to our fears? But I’m prepared to take a leap of faith. I’m ready to set my apprehensions aside. Are you able to do the same?

I genuinely hope so. Because my patience isn’t infinite. I feel I’ve lingered long enough.

It’s like I’ve been in this situation before, and I refuse to repeat that narrative—where I encounter someone who offers half-hearted efforts, half-truths, and a lukewarm love.

I’d rather not endure that experience anew. It’s not that I lack feelings for you. I really do care.

Like I’ve never felt for anyone else in this way, but you must understand that I cannot settle for less than what I’m worthy of.

I’ve learned valuable lessons from the past. I do not wish to look back and regard you as just another lesson in my life.

I yearn for you to be more significant. I truly believe you have the potential to be more. I know we can be extraordinary together.

Deep down, I think you sense this too—you just haven’t come to terms with it yet. I hope you make that realization before it’s too late. Before I decide to let go of what we have.

You simply need to embrace me and reassure me that you are completely invested. Then we can proceed at a measured pace, step by step.

I just need validation that you are committed to me. That you’ll proudly introduce me as your girlfriend to your friends.

That you’re ready to take a chance and invest fully in us.

So make your choice. Either you want me or you don’t. I refuse to remain in limbo with you any longer.

This situation we find ourselves in is unbearable.

It brings me neither happiness nor fulfillment. I despise the “almost” love you’re offering. I hope you come to recognize that I am entitled to more than just “almost.” We are meant for greater things than “almost.”