I Do Still Trust Men, I Just Don’t Believe Their Words Anymore
I look back at my past relationships and cringe at how gullible I was! I let myself be taken for a ride, all because I loved and didn’t want to lose the men in my life. I admit, I messed up, and those mistakes cost me big time. My greatest mistake? Not putting myself first. I always gave my partners the upper hand and let them call the shots.
I went all in for people I cared about, without thinking twice. Little did I know, this would cost me a pretty penny, and my heart would pay the price. I’m still picking up the shattered pieces, trying to mend a heart that was trampled on and left in tatters. It’s a challenge, especially when the person responsible for this mess was the one I trusted the most.
He broke my heart without batting an eye, despite knowing it beat solely for him. He stood on my feelings and crushed them as if they meant nothing to him—as if I meant nothing.
Ironically, he always claimed I was the apple of his eye, promising to protect my innocent heart. But his daily lies and broken promises did the exact opposite. They wounded me deeper than anyone ever had and left scars that may never fade. But I’ve made a vow to myself: words alone won’t fool me again.
I won’t fall for your shallow apologies or let you blame my “unrealistic expectations.” How dare you claim I expected too much when all I wanted was your honest love and truthfulness! And yet, you failed me on both counts because the truth is, you never truly loved me. Save your feeble excuses; I won’t be fooled into forgiving or forgetting.
My instincts tried to warn me about your deceit, but I ignored them, hoping you’d prove them wrong and show that your love was real. But now I’m exhausted. I’m tired of silencing my inner voice, of letting you control my life, of repeatedly trying to mend a broken heart. My soul is weary from the constant battle against fake people like you; it deserves a break.
But I refuse to give up on love. I won’t build walls around myself because I know true love exists, and the right man for me is out there. He won’t break my heart or betray my trust. I firmly believe this. You may have hurt me, but you didn’t break my spirit or make me lose faith in love. Instead, you taught me to be cautious with my heart and to value actions over mere words.
