I Thought You Were My Soulmate But You Ended Up Being My Nightmare

Whenever you gazed into my eyes, a warmth would spread throughout my entire being.

My heartbeat would race, and my lips would long for the touch of yours.

Each time you caught my gaze, I found myself momentarily frozen, as if I recognized those eyes from somewhere, perhaps from dreams or a fleeting encounter on the street when we were merely strangers.

With you, hours felt like mere seconds, and there was nowhere on this planet I’d rather be. You made me feel secure, cherished, and joyful.

I was convinced that you were my destined match, the one I’d been longing for all along.

But unexpectedly, one day, when you looked into my eyes again, I didn’t experience the usual warmth.

For the first time, my heart didn’t quicken, nor did my lips crave your kiss.

I came to the realization that you were no longer the person I fell for. You were no longer the one I had loved deeply!

I understood that I had never truly loved you; instead, I was enamored with the concept of you.

I wished to believe that your kind actions came from a genuine place, that your words were nothing but heartfelt truths, and that you were the one I needed, even though you weren’t.

I convinced myself that you were worth opening my heart to, despite that small voice in my mind advising me otherwise.

I suppose I was fed up with the manipulative games played by toxic men, prompting my decision to ignore those red flags and follow my heart without question.

I yearned to trust you, to give my heart to you, hoping to build something substantial together. I failed to see that you weren’t seeking the same.

I failed to recognize that your words were mere fabrications, that your actions were selfish, and that your heart was devoid of substance.

I believed you were a man who took initiative rather than making excuses like others.

I thought you were a man who embraced love and knew how to value what he possessed. But you did.

You valued it only when it suited your interests.

Every time I felt alone and hurt, you would devise the perfect excuse to avoid being there for me.

Whenever I voiced a complaint, you’d dismiss it as an overreaction.

Our hearts were never compatible, and I spent too long blaming myself for realizing it too late.

I blamed myself for naively allowing you into my life and transforming it into my worst nightmare!

I felt regret for not knowing how to prioritize my own happiness and well-being.

I blamed myself for not being able to be you!

You made me feel like a worthless punching bag, unworthy of love. You made me feel awful about everything I said and did.

For a long time, I convinced myself that I was responsible for everything that transpired between us.

It took far too long for me to realize that you were merely a flaw in my system, an error that required resolution, a mistake begging to be erased, a chapter that warranted obliteration!

It took far too long for me to see that you were simply a painful lesson disguised as my greatest nightmare.

Perhaps I needed to endure a nightmare to awaken and recognize how unkind I had been to myself and my heart.

Maybe I required a nightmare to confront me directly and make me understand that I should never compromise my own well-being for others, or extend my trust without receiving proof of genuine intention.

I learned that I should never fall hopelessly for a stranger who fails to comprehend what love genuinely entails.

I must always prioritize my own happiness over the needs of others.

It took too long to realize that you were the wake-up call I desperately needed to rescue myself before it was too late!

And rather than holding you accountable for all you’ve done to me, I am genuinely thankful for every instance you treated me poorly and for every hurtful word uttered, as each encounter taught me to discern more wisely with whom I share my joy.

Every time you took me for granted, you instructed me not to presume that selfish individuals would regard me as a priority.

Every moment you made me feel inadequate, you reminded me that life is too fleeting to spend with those who don’t deserve to be part of it.

And every time your name is mentioned, it evokes a painful yet invaluable lesson that was crucial for me to learn in my journey toward genuine happiness!