I Wanted You To Fix Me, But You Broke Me Even More

The day we met is forever etched in my mind. You seemed like the man I’d been hoping for all my life. Your kindness, generosity, and a smile that could illuminate the darkest corners of the room captivated me.

Tragically, from those sweet lips came a torrent of lies I never thought possible from anyone.

You know what? I truly didn’t see you coming. You just appeared, and I thought you were heaven-sent to rescue me from myself.

But, as usual, I was horribly wrong. You entered my life like you could sense my still-bleeding wounds. You were like a predator, thriving on someone’s pain.

And that’s precisely what you did to me. You walked into my life, knowing every detail of my past.

You knew I had been through hell and back, and the last thing I needed was someone to exploit me.

I still remember sharing my past, including the man who ruined me and then vanished. You said I deserved better and that he was foolish to let me go.

You told me I was too good for someone like him, and if I wanted, you would try to heal all the breaks in my heart.

My head was a whirlwind of emotions, but above all, I yearned to be loved. So, I gave you a chance because I needed someone to make me feel whole again.

I believed you were genuine, but I was wrong.

I can’t fault myself because you were such a convincing actor. You managed to deceive a girl who loved you.

You swore you would never hurt me. You said you wouldn’t, but you did!

You emotionally destroyed me with all those horrible things you did. To you, I was the perfect victim because someone had already hurt me.

You finished the job, making it your way to feel superior. But let me tell you, in love, there is no superiority.

In love, both people are equal in everything they do. In love, there is no one above or below, just someone beside you, close to your heart.

Alas, that’s something you clearly don’t have. If you had a heart, you wouldn’t have hurt me so terribly.

I just can’t understand why you did all that to me. Why the cheating, name-calling, emotional and physical abuse, and gaslighting?

What did you seek to achieve? Someone to obey you blindly? Didn’t you realize I already did that because I loved you?

You didn’t need to do all those terrible things to me. I just wanted you to love me, but you couldn’t even manage that. Because deep down, you were broken too.

But like any prideful man, you couldn’t admit that. The truth is, you can’t love someone else if you don’t love yourself. And that was a mistake we both made.

We both craved love from someone else, but in reality, we just needed to love ourselves to heal.

I admit my mistake and I know I won’t repeat it. In this mess called life, I’ve learned so many lessons, even if it was the hard way.

I learned not to believe all the lies you told me just to get into my bed. I learned to respect myself so others would do the same.

I learned that I can’t force love into my life; I have to wait for it. Because if I force it, it might not be right.

I know this from my experience with you. I wanted someone by my side so badly, but it turned out to be a bad choice.

You were too cowardly to break an already broken woman. And the worst part? You didn’t feel any remorse for doing it.

You thought our toxic relationship would last forever and that you would always control me.

But you didn’t know that I am a born fighter, and sooner or later, I would stand up and fight for myself.

Once you realize you have one life to live and someone is ruining it, you go crazy.

That’s what I did. I lost it and kicked you out of my house and my heart.

Even though I loved you and it hurt to let you go, I knew it was more painful to keep you close. Now, I finally have the closure I needed so much.

Now, I’m a woman who knows what she wants, and I won’t settle for less than I deserve.

And you know what? I don’t need a man to fix me. I just need a man who will love me while I fix myself. And that man will never be YOU!